oi niguero!

yerno
sometimes i hate you
sometimes i really just wanna hit you, hard.
but then v interferes
and no matter how much i hate you

you're f
and somehow, because of v&f we're linked.

sisters, who don't even know anything about each other - not really.

but that doesn't matter




because the devils on our shoulders are best friends and sisters.
you give up on your devil
all the time

but i think you should give her a chance
she's a n
she's special - and i'd know, being the creator of this magnificent family.

people misunderstand them
consider them, fucked up, wild child, sluts.
oh they're so much more.

d'you know what?
i once came close to asking you to change f's name.

because i used to have her
and she wasn't a thing like the f you have now
but then i realised


she's grown up
you helped her do that.



you made her the girl that v loves so dearly.

i'm sorry too, but it hurts that you've given up on her.

lifelines.

best friend. always.

i love you, so much that it sometimes hurts.

you're the girl who understands absolutely everything.

that time that j pissed me off, and even though i said nothing, you knew, you just knew. i could tell right then that you really were my everything, you really were my best friend.

& i knew it'd be forever.

i'm glad i've got you

you, boy, are perfect.

spend forever with me please? it'd be lovely.

when we're apart i miss you like crazy, i long to be back in your arms.

with you, i feel safe and protected - like nothing in the world could ever hurt me, could ever get its hands on me. because you've got me.

i've loved you since day one.

and i always will.

the caption above is true.

you are absolutely brilliant and i love you to bits.

i can talk to you about everything, it's like having a big sister.

i honestly don't know what i'd do if i didn't have you, who would i talk to about my typical teenage worries? you girl, are like a saint.

i'm gonna tell people

"my auntie han's cooler than you!"

you three, are my everything.

and i love you.

broken doll

i'm having the worst night of my life.
first, i miss a and although i've gathered she's staying at her sisters, and she seemed to be having a good time which i'm so glad about, i need her.
i need h
i need ah

i need my three lifelines.

i worry so much about my mum
she smokes
and just now she's downstairs, maybe still on the floor - i don't know
and she's drunk
real drunk
she refuses to go to bed
my dads down there with her
she won't stop crying
and says nothings wrong.

my dad came upstairs about an hour ago when i was trying to sleep
told me to come downstairs cause my mum was upset
i asked why and he said "she thinks you're under attack"
yeah, im confused too.

she tried to tell me something while i was down there
for a second i thought maybe she knew
maybe she knew what i've done
then she told me to tell them
them being my dad and his friend who were sat at the table.

i've never seen her this bad
she even fell off her chair.
it sounds funny, and it was for a split second.
til i remembered why she fell.

although i will, i never want to touch a drop of alcohol.
or at least, not as much as she has tonight.
i think she worries about me too, but she's got nothing to worry about.
i'm strong, like v


i just wish she'd realise that i worry about her
i wish she'd change.


it's breaking my heart.
& i don't know what to do, she never listens when i tell her to stop smoking, so if i add this to the list of things for her to do, she won't listen either.



my hands are freezing cold,
i'm feeling numb
i don't know how to feel.

things like this seem to make me feel much much older.
for the first time, i had to actually be the one doing the looking after, not the other way around.
while she cried, i saw my dad's face crumple. that broke my heart even more.

what the hell is going on.

first love

its true
that you were my first love
it might have been crazy, immature teenage love, but love nonetheless.

you were my adorable boy
the one that i'd pined over for a while
and done everything to capture

she'd helped me, we'd done the girly age-old thing of planning every single move
every single smile
every single word

every single, tiny, insignificant detail
that you probably didn't even pick up on.

three months seems to be a thing with me.
you, and then the other one - whom i'm still confused by.
but you were the first real one.
my god i was crazy for you
your cute little face
your boyish behaviour
you were still a child
i was too
we were fools
we were younger than young

confused by the emotion that is love
it was beginning to form within our minds
it was awkened slowly

now it flows freely through my every vein
through every single inch

every single tiny isnignificant detail
but do you know that?


do you still care like i seem to?
was i your first love?
even if it was crazy, immature teenage love, but love nonetheless.
crazy, immature teenage love, but love nonetheless.


it's occured to me
that every boy who captures my heart, seems to give it back but keep a tiny peice just to spite me
just to make sure that i always care, just a little.



i do wish we'd never parted
i do wish i was there with you, but this is the life fate has handed me and i'm incredibly happy with it.
please be happy too.
i want us to always stay in touch
i want to talk on the phone with ease like we used to
i think i could avoid the embarrassment of the time i met your mother, oh i can feel myself blushing at it even now.


lets be friends, lets fight the distance.

untouchable

Untouchable like


A distant diamond sky

I'm reaching out

And I just

Can't tell you why

I'm caught up in you

I'm caught up in you



Untouchable burning

Brighter than the sun

And when you're close

I feel like coming undone



In the middle of the night

When I'm in this dream

It's like

A million little stars

Spelling out your name

You gotta come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on

Little taste of heaven



It's half full

And I won't wait here

All day

I know you're saying

That you'd be here

Anyway



But you're

Untouchable burning

Brighter than the sun

Now that you're close

I feel like coming undone



In the middle of the night

When I'm in this dream

It's like

A million little stars

Spelling out your name

You gotta, come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on



Oh

In the middle of the night

We could form this dream

I wanna feel you

By my side

Standing next to me

You gotta, come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on

Little taste of heaven




I'm caught

Up in you




Untouchable burning

Brighter than the sun

And when you're close

I feel like coming undone



In the middle of the night

When I'm in this dream

It's like

A million little stars

Spelling out your name

You gotta come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on




In the middle of the night

When I'm in this dream

It's like

A million little stars

Spelling out your name

You gotta, come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on

Little taste of heaven.

paper gangsta

don't you just hate it
when people act like utter knobs?

it frustrates me when people act like they're five years old
and act like they're all that and that the sun shines out their arse


news flash: it doesn't.
you need to grow a pair
you need to learn that you have to be nice to people because hurting people isn't acceptable.
my momma used to always tell me "don't do to other people what you wouldn't like to happen to you."
so bscly, do you want to the girl you like to get off with three other people in front of you after you've tried to admit your feelings?
no, i don't think you would.

boys are the most infuriating things on this earth
they're such dicks sometimes

what you need to realise is that she's better than you're ever going to get
she's funny, zany, unpredictable, gorgeous, kind, and she's everything a guy needs.
if you weren't such a twat, you two would be cute.
but now that i've realised what a coward, what an absolute idiot you are: you'll never deserve her.


baby you ain't all that, baby there's no way back.

blushing

I ne'er was struck before that hour,

with love so sudden and so sweet,

his face bloomed like a sweet flower,

and stole my heart away complete.

My face turned pale as deadly pale,

my legs refused to walk away.

My heart has left it's dwelling place,

and can return no more.

-

ever been kidnapped

by a poet?

if i were a poet

i'd kidnap you

put you in phrases and meter

you to jones beach

or maybe coney island

or maybe just to my house

lyric you in lilacs

dash you into the beach

to complement my see

play the lyre for you

ode to you with my love song

anything to win you

wrap you in the red black green

show you off to mama

yeah if i were a poet,

i'd kidnap you.

-

Then you rose into my life

like a promised sunrise.

Brightening my days with light in your eyes.

I've never been so strong.

Now I'm where I belong.

-

Love so alike that none can slacken, none can die.

If ever two were one, then surely we.

he is actually, the funniest guy alive.

and i love him to peices.

i'd rather like it if he was my best friend

i'd even marry him

(if you didn't exsist, h)

n'awh nathan <3

i smile for many reasons

but you are the main one

you are my favourite reason

you're adorable

my alpha-geek

the boy who

for a long time now

has meant everything

absolutely everything

 to me

every single day

i'll wake up and think of you

the one who makes me smile

this one's for you, h.

silent sea

i miss you.
urrh i hate this.


talk to me again?
i've done nothing wrong.
i'm fully over you, i realised that today.




you're such a twat.
but i like setting myself up for heartache.
self-destructive, yup, that's me.



come back, be my besty again.





as for you.
i love you, more than anything. even if you do violently attack me, leaving with me bruises and scractches, you bitch! :)





winds are whipping waves up
like skyscrapers
and the harder they hit me
the less i seem to bruise

tell me why?

seeing the way she looked at me today
made me realise something.
i'm such a hypocrite
surely i hurt her more than that other girl hurt me?

why can't i let go of grudges?
i usually do it so well, but this is one that is really clinging on.

it doesn't even matter any more
because it made sure that i made the best decision of my life...



i should thank her
even if she does regret it.



this is it.
the end for you and me.
no friends, nothing.
you hate me
why?
what did i fucking do this time?
you're so stroppy you know
are you sure you're not a girl?
i never got the chance to check, so i guess maybe there's a chance...

stupid dirty mind. sorry. old habits die hard.

anyway, back to my point.
i wish i could tell you everything you put me through
every night that i spent sat up in bed, wondering what the hell i should do
what i'd have to do to make you love me, properly.
you never loved me, not really.
i know you said you did, but you didn't, don't be stupid.
are you even capable of loving anyone but yourself? i'm not so sure y'know.
you're a child
selfish and wrapped up in a world that isn't even close to reality
you should really grow up
you should really realise what a dick you are
you hurt so many people, without realising.
me for one,


i'm "the only one" you "can trust". fuck that, you liar.
why on earth, do i get the blame for all your little fucked up mood swings
why do i get hurt when its you who's in the wrong.
all you do is lie to me
and it hurts me, so much.
i want you to care about me
like i care about you
i want you to stop messing about and being stupid
i want you to have a better life than you're heading towards right now
i probably sound like your mother, but then again, you don't look after yourself.
you're so stupid!
i hate you.

that's a lie.
i still want you around, i want my best friend back.
where's my spider monkey when i need him to make me smile?
anywhere but with me, being my friend.



tell me why.
what is it now?
i can't do with this much longer,
stop messing me around.




i've been giving out chances, and all you do is let me down.
you're probably thinking we'll be fine again, but not this time around
you don't have to call anymore, i won't pick up the phone
this is the last straw, don't wanna hurt anymore.
and you can tell me that you're sorry but i don't believe you baby
like i did before.
you're looking so innocent, i might believe you if i didn't know...
i could've loved you all my life if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
and you've got your share of secrets, and i'm tired of being last to know.
and now you're asking me to listen; cuz it's worked each time before.




you used to shine so bright, but i watched all of it fade.

do you want the truth or something beautiful?

i get tired sometimes
everything becomes too much and i break down.
it's been a while since it's happened.
the last time was in may.

and now it's happening again.
i can feel myself slipping
losing touch
falling into a black hole

i have everything i want
but parts of it are cracking
breaking beneath my tender touch

just one tiny bit of pressure and i fear it may all disappear.


it's easy to decieve everyone
i'll carry on as if i'm fine
once the day is through and i'm by myself
everything will let loose
i'll feel those awful feelings that desperately want to tear me apart
not even V helps much these days
her life is too fucked up for her to be my conscience, my reason to carry on.

i can be who you want me to be
but that would mean being someone i'm not.

i don't think many people realise
just how sensitive i can be
just how much every tiny detail gets to me
i like everything to be perfect, and when it's not, i feel uncomfortable and i find it hard to focus on anything but trying to fix the imperfections.
then i get distracted
and frustrate myself even more.


pumpkin, you are everything to me. i'm sorry that you think he's in the way in some ways, but i guess thats just life. no matter how much it hurts, we just gotta learn to compromise with things we don't quite like. i'll never let you go, sisters before misters.

friendship injection,

i hate it so much when this happens.
you go all untalkative
and you don't seem to want to share with me what you're thinking
its like..
well usually i'm edward cullen and can tell what you're thinking
but every now and again you become bella swan and i'm blocked out.
that was the shittest analogy ever.

anyway,
i hate this.
i'm your best friend, (aren't i?)
i want to know whats going on
and i know its hard
because im so far away
but i care so much
i want to help when things arent going well for you.

you can trust me, i promise.

* * * *

even if she's being mean to you
i still care
feel free to talk to me whenever darling, i'll be here :)

Rx

tightrope,

Every single time I'm ready to leave you behind
get on with my life and pick myself back up off the ground
you reappear and complicate everything.


sure, you're nothing but a friend to me.
thats all you ever were honestly,
the love that was there, it wasn't real, was it?

nevertheless,
stop messing with my head.
stop involving me with your fucked up life
you fucked it up,
you fix it.
because i won't
but i'll admit that i want to

that i want you to be happy
and that i wish i didn't get so jealous
because i dont love you, not like that.

but no other girl can love you like i do,
they won't ever care as much.
why?
because you are my best friend
no matter how often we speak
i still care infinitely.
but sometimes i don't want to,
all you do is lie to me
and play with my mind.
it's not fair, stop it.

you were the first person that i let into my head.
you broke me.
i'm scared to let anyone in again, in case they do the same.

   * * * * * *

i won't lie
i'm the jealous type
i get a good dose of the green eyed monster
and i get it pretty badly.

shes too close to you
i'm not the only one who's noticed.
it pisses me off so goddamn much
but i don't want to say a thing
because i'm not sure if its just paranoia
i'm scared that i might one day lose you
it would break me into a million peices

even the thought of it reduces me to tears.

something scarily amazing,

i don't know if she was mine
i don't know when she was meant to exsist,
or if she ever will
all i know is
when i held her in my arms
she was everything that mattered


those wide baby blues stared up into my identical eyes
and my heart shuddered
she was beautiful

a tiny amount of soft light brown hair
a cute little 'button' nose
and a smile that i knew would be one to break hearts


whether or not it was one of my dreams that eventually comes true
i don't know

but for her sake
i hope it does.
because i know she'd be loved by many.

comforting sounds

everybody needs inspiration
everybody needs a song
beautiful melody when the nights so long
cuz there is no guarantee
that this life is easy
when my world is falling apart
when theres no light to break up the dark
thats when i, i look at you
when the waves are flooding the shore
and i cant find my way home anymore
thats when i, i look at you
when i look at you i see forgiveness
i see the truth
you love me for who i am
like the stars hold the moon
right there where they belong
and i know i'm not alone
when my world is falling apart
when theres no light to break up the dark
thats when i, i look at you
when the waves are flooding the shore
and i can't find my way home anymore
thats when i, i look at you
you appear just like a dream to me,
just like kaleidoscope colours
that cover me
all i need
every breath that i breathe
don't you know you're beautiful?
when the waves are flooding shore
and i cant find my way home anymore
thats when i, i look at you
you appear just like a dream to me


every moment spent with you is one that i want to cherish forever, you're my best friend and lover all rolled into one and i couldn't be happier than when i'm lying in your arms talking about absolutely anything, even if its about how gay you are sometimes. to me, you are the most beautiful thing that this planet has ever produced.


rx

pointless wishes,

i wish for a lot of things.

for more money
for all my friends in one place
for more time to spend with loved ones
for my room to be decorated
for another dog
for angela to sell fanta to me
for pictures of you and me
for a better little digital camera
for more clothes
for more materialistic shiz
for more photos with people i love
for courage
to work at elle magazine
to have less homework
to go out more
to have more time in general



for a better me.

boys and girls,

it amazes me to watch everyone around me go about their lives.






i must admit, when i found out

i was in shock.


infact i still am.






i've never imagined you with anyone but her
even if you were never really with her
the fact you liked her showed
maybe only to me
because she didn't see it
but i did




i can't get over it.






that's so... bizzare.




















dublin

its the place i wanna spend forever in.






two of the amost amazing people live there

z & m

I LOVE YOU!

i had such an amazing time with them two and a & s

it was the best day of my life
well, the best day possible spent without h

love from,

Rx

i want to save you,

wherever she goes she wants to know she's beautiful.

Spin around me like a dream

We played out on this movie screen

And I said,

Did you know I miss you?

I love you three more than life itself.

A, AH & H.

my complete & utter

lifelines

without you three i am nothing.

alice, my all time bestie, i can talk to you about anything and shh but i love you best :)

auntie han, the one who's everything i want to be, the girl who keeps me sane even though you're insane.

harry, oh do i even need to say it? might as well... I LOVE YOU.

we're burning baby, it's so electric. crash, bang - ooh.

god i love cheryl cole.

i'd turn lesbian for her, i really would.

these days, i find myself diving infront of you simply for your attention and i've no idea why. you're not something that's worth my precious time really, but i think it's because of that that i still want to be your favourite even though i doubt i really still am, we don't talk enough for that.

you'll always be my spidermonkey though, promise.

Rx

three little birds,

Sometimes things get hard, things get outta control.
But we will overcome this.
And if we don’t? Actually that’s not even possible so let’s not think about it.

I love you more than anything in this whole wide world, I promise.
You are almost two years of my life that I look back upon and instantly smile about.

This is my message to you;
Don’t worry about a thing, cuz every little thing is gonna be alright.


In life we have some troubles, but when you worry you make it double.
We can’t be together every day, sometimes there’ll be days when we don’t have the time to speak properly, but I promise you’ll never stop being my best friend.
I can’t cope without you.
You’re my most favourite person, ever.

We are the best friend version of soulmates, the world doesn’t know what’s hit it when we make our little impacts.
Booyah.

Wherever you are, whatever you do, every breath that I take I'll be thinking of me & you. Wherever you go, you know you're not alone.

love from your best friend,

Rx

these four walls,

That's what you don't notice.

You don't notice the fact that you only brush it off when it really matters.

When really I'm having a brief breakdown.

Its difficult watching us drift between rocky and stable,

It's difficult knowing that I'm the one who causes it.

Because I'm just so fucked up, and I'm sorry.

 

I don't deal well with anything.

Things get too hard for me all the time.

At least a few times a week I end up sat in tears for all sorts of reasons.

But it's okay, I'm just a girl.

I'm supposed to be like this, I think.

 

I'm sorry.

I really am.

I understand that I make no sense sometimes.

That I can't explain some things to you – I just don't want to seem crazy.

I just don't want to let someone unravel my mind, the thought alone scares me half to death.

I've got so much love to give, but what if someone doesn't want it?

I couldn't face that. It would break me beyond repair.

 

 

I still think about him. Not in the same way, don't worry.

But the pain is still there, I'd be a liar if I said it wasn't.

It's still as fresh as it was when I first felt it and I've no idea why.

First real love? I don't think so, I think you claimed that spot just over a year ago.

Why does it still hurt though? Why can I still feel a pang of jealously when I see him with girls that aren't me?

Girls that don't know him as well as I do,

Girls that will only break his heart like I did.

I want to protect him and I can't, not like I want to.

That's why it hurts.

 

I want to be with you forever,

I've decided.

I can see everything in my future – being right at your side.

I may be young but I'm certain that I'd like that, that I want that.

Like I've said a million times before; perfection.

 

I love you,

Rx

magnetic electric,

H; My baby,

doesn't what's going on or who's around us

all I see is you.

 

you have made me believe,

hold me in your arms

'cause i'm falling.

 

I know the fear in me will pass.

 

No matter how I try to hide

you see straight through my disguise,

you know how to fix me.

 

I knew all along, I knew, I knew.

I knew that this was destined.

That we had to happen,

We had to be something.

We simply had to.

I don't care what people say,

I don't care what they think,

I just know that I'm happy with you.

Always.

 

Whenever I leave your side, the smell of your skin lingers on me

And it's irresistible

But makes me miss you more

It's almost like torture being away from you.

I love you, more than most things in this world.

 

 

N; what is it about you? why do you still cross my mind every now and again?

I feel nothing for you, nothing.

You're merely an ex, an awkward sort of best friend.

Awkward only because we were once in love

and we can still remember

those unforgettable rushes of beautiful moments

the laughs

the fights that always ended and do still end the same.

I cry, you punch the wall.

 

We don't seem to change, why?

You fascinate me

Why?

Because I knew the part of you that you daren't show to most

You may not have realised

But you let me into your world.

I saw the reasons behind the way you are

I saw the reasons that I loved you

I saw the reason that I had to leave.

 

You were destined to break me and you did, but I'm strong.

I got back up within days and I showed you that I didn't need you no matter how much you secretly tried to get me back,

No matter how much you needed me. Because I know you did, and still do.

That's why I still stand by you even though it hurts

It hurts to know that we lost what could've been so perfect.

Something that was beyond beautiful.

 

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine. Have you heard there's this thing that heals and it's called time? Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place, I know, my heart will break and a new me will fill this space. Deep down, I'm calling time on you.

 

We were kisses in the middle of crowds of people, we were childish jokes and endless laughter, we were large phone bills to our parents. I was the secret tears at night, you were the boy filled with regret. I was the one who realised. I was the one who couldn't bring myself to leave straight away. I was naive. Even though it was me you protected, I knew that I protected you too, you needed me too and I think deep down, you still do. So I'll stick by you, even though it means I won't have the chance to recover fully, even though I doubt I ever will. I'll always love you, even if it is in a different way to the way it used to be.

 

 

oopsy daisy,

N you honestly are my best friend even if I don't talk to you enough. I knew you wouldn't let me down and I'm glad.

You know me so well, and I like it that you still do.

I want you in my life, always.

You make me laugh, you cheer me up just by being your stupid self.

Just like you did when we were together.

It's weird how we're pretty much the same as we were, without certain aspects of course.

It's almost creepily weird but I like it.

I don't just want you in my life, I need you.

Be my best friend forever? Keep me sane? Even if you yourself have no sanity?

I love you, and I think it was always this sorta 'best friend love' from the start.

 

 

C, what the fuck is going on?

I've noticed the looks.

I've noticed the way you find any excuse to talk to me.

Don't let it be true.

We're friends.

 

You, there aren't enough words in the English language to describe what you are to me.

Just the way you act around me makes me smile. The chirpy spontaneity of your little "I love you" outbursts – oh it makes me smile.

You are perfect.

We are perfect.

I hope this never ends.

Although sometimes I can't explain things, sometimes I don't want you to understand, it doesn't mean I love you any less, I hope you know that.

I'm yours forever.

I love you – don't forget that, ever.

 

Rx

 

 

bittersweet and its all your fault,

i spoke about how i feel about you today
for the first time in a very very long time,
just to a girl i barely know but i'm glad.

it made me realise why i did what i did - which was supposedly break your heart regardless of the fact that you'd already broken mine a million times before.


you did nothing but lie to me, break me into tiny little peices and expect me to pull myself together and keep on smiling, keep on pretending i was okay with what you were doing to me.
you lied, so many times. why?
did it amuse you to know you were tearing me apart and that i couldn't bear to show it for the fear of seeming young and weak.
well you won't break me again.

you said you'd stop what you were doing.
you told c that you hadn't.
did you realise how much that hurt? for you to tell her of all people? you knew damn well she wanted you.
she only wanted me with you because she preferred us than you and g
i think i'm the only one who saw that.

i was almost willing to give myself up to you y'know, but i'm glad i didn't
you really are not
worth it

nor are you worth my time, my breath or my tears - though the tears are long gone now, i had other people to help me dry them, people who really care.

and then you... and her... i can't even think about it, it makes me sick.
and then you weren't going to tell me?!
i'm glad that k made you tell, you lying peice of..
no. no i won't lower myself to name calling, no matter how much i want to, it seems childish but it seems like a good way to release built up anger but i'll save that til no-ones around and i'm alone with my thoughts.

i'm sorry i never told you about what was happening,
it was my own way of getting back at you, my way of lying, breaking a seemingly not-so-innocent heart and i maybe shouldn't have done it, but i don't care. i'm happy now.

i won't even mention what else you've done to me over the past few months.
you really aren't worth it anymore
but i can't help but be your friend
you seem too vulnerable for me to leave
that childish manner you have still makes me smile
even though i really should just walk away
i can't.


and although i said maybe there's a potential future for us, i lied.
i hope you like the taste of your own bitter game, n.

explosions, flames and calm,

don't you just hate it when everything you have seems to go up in smoke?
but then theres that lovely feeling when you realise that you haven't lost everything, no.

right now i've lost j, but we always seem to bicker, argue, fall out.
i'm not sure if we'll ever be the same, but i hope we will be.
we've both done wrong, though this time maybe it was my fault for once.
but seeing as i always backed down when it was your fault maybe i won't back down this time.
i'm sorry, forgive me.
i can't help it that you drive me insane sometimes. i know i do the same to you.

h, this isn't fair on you sweetie and i'm sorry.
if you need to choose, choose her. it'll kill me, but if you need to, do it.
you know we always fight, me and j. thats just how we are.
but this will end, maybe me and her won't be friends when it does end, but it will end.
i love you to peices, you're one of my closest friends. you cheer me up so easily when i'm upset or you calm me down when i'm angry, though i do nothing for you really.. why are we friends? it's a blessing though, that's for sure.
you make me laugh and i thank you for being the good friend that you are, promise we'll always be friends? i'll get my mum to make you a sandwich before i come out to see you in ldn. i can't wait.

a, you know i love you. i love you more than anything and i thank you so so so so much for being the coolest ginger alive, and my best friend.
also, thank you for sticking by me. it's wrong to choose sides sometimes, but at least i know you'd choose mine! haha.

l, i'm here for you baby, you know i am. lots of us are and we all love you so much, i hope you know that because it's 100% true.

you.
I LOVE YOU.
so so so much!
you may have noticed i'm avoiding you though.
why?
i'm scared.
worried.
what about school?
we'll see each other every day. twice at the least. for like.. at least 20 minutes.. so thats 40 minutes minimum every day.
and we're not used to that yet, seeing each other that often...
what if i start to feel suffocated? that's what happens to me. i feel like i've got no space, no time away from people. then i start to ignore them and they don't understand why.
oh i'm stupid. paranoid. i'm sorry.
i just feel that if we spend this next week apart, maybe it'll make school a lot easier? i don't know.
i'm just worrying.
worrying.
worrying..
i love you, don't forget that - ever.


Rx

boys like you love me forever,

I had an idea of what I was going to write but when it came down to it.

I forgot.

All I know is that I miss being around you.

I miss you.

Now that I've had the chance to be with you properly,

alone,

it makes the time apart so much harder.

I miss your lips on my skin.

I miss your lips on mine.

I miss your embrace.

 

Will you always love me?

Will you always care?

I know I will.

I knew that right from the start,

Did you?

 

I want you, all of you.

But I'm holding myself back.

Impatience may be a virtue to James McAvoy,

But not to me, no

Not with you.

We've got forever,

there's no need to rush.

 

I love you, always.

Forever.

Eternity is ours for the taking,

Do you want it?

 

new beginning,

I'm cleansing myself of everything,

starting fresh with you in mind.

You're what I've got to look forward to.

My everything.

 

Perfection in human form.

To me, at least.

You've taught me so much in such a short space of time,

Taught me about love.

 

How to love, properly.

Not stupid teenage love that lasts what, five minutes?

 

 

My perfection, mine. This is everything I wished for, but it's not going to end now that I've got my happiness because this isn't a fairytale.

This is real.