where?

i miss the way you used to hold me whenever you could.
i miss your hand on my knee.
i miss the days where it wasn't always me reaching out to hold your hand when we walk.
i miss the passion.
i miss when you were affectionate at every opportunity.
i miss your kisses.
i miss the boy who made me laugh almost all the time.
i miss when you'd let me tickle you.
i miss the way you used to look at me like i held the world in my hands, like i was the world.

where's my boy gone? i know he's still there, but i'm finding it hard to find him again.

come back please.

they tore me apart like a hurricane.

i absolutely hate feeling like this. helpless. lost. confused. angry. did i mention, lost?

you're really bugging me. someone needs to shout at you. find your own boys to like, don't talk like mad to boys that'll never love you the way a boy should.
for goodness sake. just sort yourself out.
you're up and down all the time, more than the average girl, and believe me it irritates most of the people around you more than you'll ever know. we're too fucking nice to say anything about how whiney and irritating you can be sometimes. because we're your friends and deep down we love you too much to hurt you by being so harsh.

but honestly? right now i want to be that harsh because you're just messing with the wrong person.

he's the type of boy you'd fall for. i know it so.
because i did too.

but please, i'd never talk that much to one of your friends that i didnt know.
and liking that? oh my god do you want a slap? cause next time i see you - you're heading towards getting one.


you can't ever love him like i do, you won't ever care as much as i do. so don't even go there, or i will be forced to shout at you until i'm finally through with being your friend.


don't dare me, because i'll carry it through.

lookbook

inspired.

so me and alice were inspired. 
by "rosie + josie"
and have made our own blog that's a little like theirs, though of course it's only just started so we've barely even got to grips with it.


also alice hasn't even had internet tonight haha :) 


http://aliceetrosiex.blogspot.com/

at the moment, there is only my introduction to myself soooo.. watch that space!

wantwantwant.

so. i just made a wordpress blog, and i think that it'll be for my photography whereas this one is for ranting and other such things.

click here to go to my new wordpress blog

however, i'm stuck on one little thing. should my photography be titled "rvmc photography" oooor "thelightsareon photography" (the lights are on could be seperated? idk).

anyways.
this blog is dedicated purely to my little clothes wishlist right now.
i wish i was rich enough to buy all the clothes i wanted when i wanted.

I had a bit of an urban outfitters purge, and these are all the things i found that i love.

now, here's what i want to wear to frankie, emily & my party (note, we're thinking the theme is gonna be greeks & romans).

urban outfitters (headband & bracelet).

but when it comes to my dress. i've got 3 in mind, all from lipsy so, comments would be appreciated.

 designed & modelled by pixie lott.

so that's it for now. this took forever to do haha!

weekend news

last night was simply beautiful, that's all i have to say about it.
lying next to you in the dark, the only light coming from the laptop on the floor and the crack in the door. i could've easily stayed there forever.

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yesterday afternoon i went shopping with mummy and she bought me quite a lot of new stuff.
the skins novel, the comedy gala dvd, hold me down - ymas cd, along with some new clothes.
i've got about 4 more lookbook photos to upload but they only let you upload one every six hours.
so sneak preview for you, (but they're nothing special).

new shorts from miss selfridge

blue jumper from topshop (its supposed to be too small length-wise).

this one's on lookbook already. the shoes are from the "goth shop" in darlington that i love, and the skirts from miss selfridge

jeggings - primark. and the crop jumper is from house of fraser "label lab" (thats what it says on the tag anyway. haha.

so yeah, pretty good day to be honest.

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i absolutely adore willa holland. i've had this saved for a weekish i think, and i think someone i'm following blogged it with some other photos of her. she's simply beautiful. i love people who are awkward looking like she is, she doesn't quite make sense to me but i love that. if i could be anyone, willa would definitely be one of the contenders.

on the subject of people i love...

aren't these two just adorable? jordan stephens (right) & harley alexander-sule (left). the two boys that make up rizzle kicks. i spoke to jordan on twitter the other day, and oh i'd love to be their friend.
if you've never heard of them, i think you should go youtube them or click here to go to their new website.

well, this has been a different type of blog for me. usually i just write about my feelings - but today i don't really have any outstanding ones.