pointless wishes,

i wish for a lot of things.

for more money
for all my friends in one place
for more time to spend with loved ones
for my room to be decorated
for another dog
for angela to sell fanta to me
for pictures of you and me
for a better little digital camera
for more clothes
for more materialistic shiz
for more photos with people i love
for courage
to work at elle magazine
to have less homework
to go out more
to have more time in general



for a better me.

boys and girls,

it amazes me to watch everyone around me go about their lives.






i must admit, when i found out

i was in shock.


infact i still am.






i've never imagined you with anyone but her
even if you were never really with her
the fact you liked her showed
maybe only to me
because she didn't see it
but i did




i can't get over it.






that's so... bizzare.




















dublin

its the place i wanna spend forever in.






two of the amost amazing people live there

z & m

I LOVE YOU!

i had such an amazing time with them two and a & s

it was the best day of my life
well, the best day possible spent without h

love from,

Rx

i want to save you,

wherever she goes she wants to know she's beautiful.

Spin around me like a dream

We played out on this movie screen

And I said,

Did you know I miss you?

I love you three more than life itself.

A, AH & H.

my complete & utter

lifelines

without you three i am nothing.

alice, my all time bestie, i can talk to you about anything and shh but i love you best :)

auntie han, the one who's everything i want to be, the girl who keeps me sane even though you're insane.

harry, oh do i even need to say it? might as well... I LOVE YOU.

we're burning baby, it's so electric. crash, bang - ooh.

god i love cheryl cole.

i'd turn lesbian for her, i really would.

these days, i find myself diving infront of you simply for your attention and i've no idea why. you're not something that's worth my precious time really, but i think it's because of that that i still want to be your favourite even though i doubt i really still am, we don't talk enough for that.

you'll always be my spidermonkey though, promise.

Rx

three little birds,

Sometimes things get hard, things get outta control.
But we will overcome this.
And if we don’t? Actually that’s not even possible so let’s not think about it.

I love you more than anything in this whole wide world, I promise.
You are almost two years of my life that I look back upon and instantly smile about.

This is my message to you;
Don’t worry about a thing, cuz every little thing is gonna be alright.


In life we have some troubles, but when you worry you make it double.
We can’t be together every day, sometimes there’ll be days when we don’t have the time to speak properly, but I promise you’ll never stop being my best friend.
I can’t cope without you.
You’re my most favourite person, ever.

We are the best friend version of soulmates, the world doesn’t know what’s hit it when we make our little impacts.
Booyah.

Wherever you are, whatever you do, every breath that I take I'll be thinking of me & you. Wherever you go, you know you're not alone.

love from your best friend,

Rx

these four walls,

That's what you don't notice.

You don't notice the fact that you only brush it off when it really matters.

When really I'm having a brief breakdown.

Its difficult watching us drift between rocky and stable,

It's difficult knowing that I'm the one who causes it.

Because I'm just so fucked up, and I'm sorry.

 

I don't deal well with anything.

Things get too hard for me all the time.

At least a few times a week I end up sat in tears for all sorts of reasons.

But it's okay, I'm just a girl.

I'm supposed to be like this, I think.

 

I'm sorry.

I really am.

I understand that I make no sense sometimes.

That I can't explain some things to you – I just don't want to seem crazy.

I just don't want to let someone unravel my mind, the thought alone scares me half to death.

I've got so much love to give, but what if someone doesn't want it?

I couldn't face that. It would break me beyond repair.

 

 

I still think about him. Not in the same way, don't worry.

But the pain is still there, I'd be a liar if I said it wasn't.

It's still as fresh as it was when I first felt it and I've no idea why.

First real love? I don't think so, I think you claimed that spot just over a year ago.

Why does it still hurt though? Why can I still feel a pang of jealously when I see him with girls that aren't me?

Girls that don't know him as well as I do,

Girls that will only break his heart like I did.

I want to protect him and I can't, not like I want to.

That's why it hurts.

 

I want to be with you forever,

I've decided.

I can see everything in my future – being right at your side.

I may be young but I'm certain that I'd like that, that I want that.

Like I've said a million times before; perfection.

 

I love you,

Rx