friendship injection,

i hate it so much when this happens.
you go all untalkative
and you don't seem to want to share with me what you're thinking
its like..
well usually i'm edward cullen and can tell what you're thinking
but every now and again you become bella swan and i'm blocked out.
that was the shittest analogy ever.

anyway,
i hate this.
i'm your best friend, (aren't i?)
i want to know whats going on
and i know its hard
because im so far away
but i care so much
i want to help when things arent going well for you.

you can trust me, i promise.

* * * *

even if she's being mean to you
i still care
feel free to talk to me whenever darling, i'll be here :)

Rx

tightrope,

Every single time I'm ready to leave you behind
get on with my life and pick myself back up off the ground
you reappear and complicate everything.


sure, you're nothing but a friend to me.
thats all you ever were honestly,
the love that was there, it wasn't real, was it?

nevertheless,
stop messing with my head.
stop involving me with your fucked up life
you fucked it up,
you fix it.
because i won't
but i'll admit that i want to

that i want you to be happy
and that i wish i didn't get so jealous
because i dont love you, not like that.

but no other girl can love you like i do,
they won't ever care as much.
why?
because you are my best friend
no matter how often we speak
i still care infinitely.
but sometimes i don't want to,
all you do is lie to me
and play with my mind.
it's not fair, stop it.

you were the first person that i let into my head.
you broke me.
i'm scared to let anyone in again, in case they do the same.

   * * * * * *

i won't lie
i'm the jealous type
i get a good dose of the green eyed monster
and i get it pretty badly.

shes too close to you
i'm not the only one who's noticed.
it pisses me off so goddamn much
but i don't want to say a thing
because i'm not sure if its just paranoia
i'm scared that i might one day lose you
it would break me into a million peices

even the thought of it reduces me to tears.

something scarily amazing,

i don't know if she was mine
i don't know when she was meant to exsist,
or if she ever will
all i know is
when i held her in my arms
she was everything that mattered


those wide baby blues stared up into my identical eyes
and my heart shuddered
she was beautiful

a tiny amount of soft light brown hair
a cute little 'button' nose
and a smile that i knew would be one to break hearts


whether or not it was one of my dreams that eventually comes true
i don't know

but for her sake
i hope it does.
because i know she'd be loved by many.

comforting sounds

everybody needs inspiration
everybody needs a song
beautiful melody when the nights so long
cuz there is no guarantee
that this life is easy
when my world is falling apart
when theres no light to break up the dark
thats when i, i look at you
when the waves are flooding the shore
and i cant find my way home anymore
thats when i, i look at you
when i look at you i see forgiveness
i see the truth
you love me for who i am
like the stars hold the moon
right there where they belong
and i know i'm not alone
when my world is falling apart
when theres no light to break up the dark
thats when i, i look at you
when the waves are flooding the shore
and i can't find my way home anymore
thats when i, i look at you
you appear just like a dream to me,
just like kaleidoscope colours
that cover me
all i need
every breath that i breathe
don't you know you're beautiful?
when the waves are flooding shore
and i cant find my way home anymore
thats when i, i look at you
you appear just like a dream to me


every moment spent with you is one that i want to cherish forever, you're my best friend and lover all rolled into one and i couldn't be happier than when i'm lying in your arms talking about absolutely anything, even if its about how gay you are sometimes. to me, you are the most beautiful thing that this planet has ever produced.


rx