oi niguero!

yerno
sometimes i hate you
sometimes i really just wanna hit you, hard.
but then v interferes
and no matter how much i hate you

you're f
and somehow, because of v&f we're linked.

sisters, who don't even know anything about each other - not really.

but that doesn't matter




because the devils on our shoulders are best friends and sisters.
you give up on your devil
all the time

but i think you should give her a chance
she's a n
she's special - and i'd know, being the creator of this magnificent family.

people misunderstand them
consider them, fucked up, wild child, sluts.
oh they're so much more.

d'you know what?
i once came close to asking you to change f's name.

because i used to have her
and she wasn't a thing like the f you have now
but then i realised


she's grown up
you helped her do that.



you made her the girl that v loves so dearly.

i'm sorry too, but it hurts that you've given up on her.

lifelines.

best friend. always.

i love you, so much that it sometimes hurts.

you're the girl who understands absolutely everything.

that time that j pissed me off, and even though i said nothing, you knew, you just knew. i could tell right then that you really were my everything, you really were my best friend.

& i knew it'd be forever.

i'm glad i've got you

you, boy, are perfect.

spend forever with me please? it'd be lovely.

when we're apart i miss you like crazy, i long to be back in your arms.

with you, i feel safe and protected - like nothing in the world could ever hurt me, could ever get its hands on me. because you've got me.

i've loved you since day one.

and i always will.

the caption above is true.

you are absolutely brilliant and i love you to bits.

i can talk to you about everything, it's like having a big sister.

i honestly don't know what i'd do if i didn't have you, who would i talk to about my typical teenage worries? you girl, are like a saint.

i'm gonna tell people

"my auntie han's cooler than you!"

you three, are my everything.

and i love you.

broken doll

i'm having the worst night of my life.
first, i miss a and although i've gathered she's staying at her sisters, and she seemed to be having a good time which i'm so glad about, i need her.
i need h
i need ah

i need my three lifelines.

i worry so much about my mum
she smokes
and just now she's downstairs, maybe still on the floor - i don't know
and she's drunk
real drunk
she refuses to go to bed
my dads down there with her
she won't stop crying
and says nothings wrong.

my dad came upstairs about an hour ago when i was trying to sleep
told me to come downstairs cause my mum was upset
i asked why and he said "she thinks you're under attack"
yeah, im confused too.

she tried to tell me something while i was down there
for a second i thought maybe she knew
maybe she knew what i've done
then she told me to tell them
them being my dad and his friend who were sat at the table.

i've never seen her this bad
she even fell off her chair.
it sounds funny, and it was for a split second.
til i remembered why she fell.

although i will, i never want to touch a drop of alcohol.
or at least, not as much as she has tonight.
i think she worries about me too, but she's got nothing to worry about.
i'm strong, like v


i just wish she'd realise that i worry about her
i wish she'd change.


it's breaking my heart.
& i don't know what to do, she never listens when i tell her to stop smoking, so if i add this to the list of things for her to do, she won't listen either.



my hands are freezing cold,
i'm feeling numb
i don't know how to feel.

things like this seem to make me feel much much older.
for the first time, i had to actually be the one doing the looking after, not the other way around.
while she cried, i saw my dad's face crumple. that broke my heart even more.

what the hell is going on.